Hi,
Today my entry will be more personal. Last week was hard for me because some of my old demons woke up. From a child, I like to draw and play computer games. From these two passions, I decided to be a concept artist, and I want to make games. Unfortunately, games always quicker take over my thoughts, and I lose time control. :/
Two years ago, I left my job to focus on improving my art skills, but uncontrolled playing on the PC was my problem. I also had a mess in my had after a breakup with my fiancée. That's why I started to focus on self-development. I was looking for ways on how to improve my learning skills, my focus, and motivations - I had a lot to change. So I read different books about time management and motivations. I took programs and listen to talks. I learn a lot, and slowly I'm changing my life. There is still a long way before me and a lot of work which I have to do to fully transform my life.
A few weeks ago, I installed Epic Games Launcher because they are giving some free games. :) This was beginning of the awakening of my old demon. A week ago I installed some mobile game and I sunk. I had problems with an Internet connection on my PC, so I spent more time on my phone. In my case, mobile games are more addicting because I have my phone always on me, so everwhere I can play. I'm monitoring my time, so I see that everyday time I spend on playing on a PC was increasing and I don't realize my plan. This is the reason why yesterday I didn't post on the blog .;/
I feel tired and frustrated that I allow my demon to won. But all my mental learning helps me to find my balance. I know that more important is how many times you stand up, no how many you fell. :) Today I uninstall all my games, and tomorrow I will have PC and mobile detox. From Monday I back on my track and I will do more drawings. :)
I wanted to show you my drawing I'm currently working, but I didn't finish it on time. :) Below is my art test for NetEnt which I made a few months ago. This is a Creature from Black Laguna.
I was wondering if I should write about my problems, but I decided to use this entry as my therapy. :)
I hope next post will be on time and more interesting:)
Have a great day and keep the fight. :)
Królik